beijixiong

2012-01-22T20:34:00.002+08:00

Woohoo~~ Happy Chinese New Year Everyone!! Yays, will be on leave for the whole of CNY week! Finally, a long break for me. Hee hee XD And 2 more working days in MSD! Counting down but at the same time I knew I will miss them ALOT. =(( Oh well, life is just so contradicting =.=

Anyways, some meet-ups in 2012 ^^

Dinner meet-up at Lot 1 - 20 Jan 12 =D

Dinner at Baystreet 21 at IMM - 06 Jan 12 =)

2011-12-31T11:43:00.003+08:00

Its coming down to 2012 in 12 hours time. Time flies, isnt it? 2011 is definitely one of the toughest year I had. My exam results that I got this semester is the greatest setback that I had faced in 2011. I had cried, had thought of giving up at one point. If its had not been for my family, friends and colleagues encouraging and comforting me in my darkest moment, I really doubt I will have the courage to move on in life. Adding to it, there was a time when my morale went low and seriously had no mood for work, with many close colleagues resigning throughout the year. Having said that, I did have many happy and unforgettable memories of 2011. I got to know new friends, and strengthen the existing ones. :)

And lastly, 2011 had ended with the KL + Tanjung Sepat trip with Jenny on 24-25 Dec 11. ^^

Here, lets us usher 2012 with a free heart. No more tears but a year filled with more laughter and happiness for me and my friends. :)

2011-12-03T11:04:00.002+08:00

I am really grateful to have such supportive friends and colleagues. Thanks for all your encouragement, care and concern which had given me the courage to accept reality and move on. Thank you and I love all of you!~ :)

2011-11-10T20:39:00.002+08:00

Because the mind does not forget, and because the pain was real.
If u ask me if the pain did subside a little after all these while? Maybe..? Probably..? But one thing is for sure, it does bring tears to my eyes still.

Almost 2 years have passed since she left us, but why is the memory still so vivid, like it all just happened yesterday?

2011-10-28T20:09:00.004+08:00

2 farewells in 1 week. Big hole in my pocket for the month of October. Hahaha.

Kelvin's farewell lunch

BeeKim's farewell lunch

2011-10-11T21:46:00.002+08:00

Mentally and physically tired. Exhausted with school, exams and work. Mugging for exams and still trying hard to hang on at work. Sick of everything. Seriously need a good long break.

Anyways, our dept photo taken during Jen's birthday ^^^

And I really missed Chia yee after her last day on 30 Sep. Meet up with her for dinner last Friday ^^^

2011-09-22T00:04:00.003+08:00

Assignments..... 2 submitted this week. 3 more to be done with due dates nearing:

Accounting Theory Individual Reflection - 28 Sep
Auditing Research paper - 01 Oct
Taxation Research paper - 03 Oct

Exams..... Coming soon. And I have yet to study. Argh! Will be applying for my exam leave soon!

Auditing - 25 Oct
Accounting Theory - 28 Oct
Singapore Taxation - 05 Nov

Work..... Still managable. But well, things changed. Working at MSD is no longer as enjoyable as in the past. To the extent that I dont feel like hanging on there already. Should start looking around after my exams!

Having a packed life now.
Haiz. Jiayou Karen :)

2011-09-02T21:37:00.002+08:00

Argh. Extremely busy with work and studies. Feeling mentally and physically tired already. So much inside, yet there is no one to turn to. Things are getting out of way, out of what I can handle. But things change, and who am I to blame now?

2011-08-23T20:39:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I really dont know why am I still hanging and holding on to it. Things had changed, and they can never go back to what it was before. Seriously sick and tired of everything. After everything that has happened in the past few weeks, I think I have made up my mind. Maybe it's time for me to move on...

2011-08-11T19:35:00.003+08:00

The face can speak a thousand emotions, and it can easily mask what the heart truly feels. Dont be fooled, for the happiest face may be masking the most hurting heart.

So many assignments to do this semester,

Also, my work is getting overloaded for me,

Tired to the max. Arghhhh.

2011-07-25T20:49:00.002+08:00

When you thought the mind has forgotten everything, just one simple reminder rekindle every little emotions that have been left buried.

Yah, after everything, I still miss the moments, I still miss her, my dear friend.

2011-07-13T20:34:00.003+08:00

Lots of meet-ups done during this holiday. Seeing old friends, friends whom I havent met for ages, really bring back memories.

Meet-up with Xinjie after 6 years plus ^^
Meet-up with jo after work ^^

Seeing people change isn't what hurts.

What hurts is remembering who they used to be.

2011-07-04T20:26:00.002+08:00

A flesh wound will heal. A void in the heart doesnt. Time doesn't heal all wounds. It just numbs them and makes you immune to the pain because you are so used to it being around.

Anyways, had a dinner gathering with the girls at Pizzahut at Marina Square on 28 Jun 11. Cya gals around in school soon. Hee hee :)

2011-06-18T20:17:00.008+08:00

Sick. Feel so sick. I just hope to recover soon. *sigh*
Anyways, just wanna upload some photos here~ XD

Lileng's birthday celebration in office - 08 Jun 11

Cloudette's last day in MSD - 03 Jun 11

Dinner Gathering with the girls at Thai Express - 03 Jun 11

Susan's birthday celebration in office - 25 May 11

Zoo outing with the girls - 21 May 11

2011-06-02T19:58:00.002+08:00

Yays. Cleared my semester 4 modules with 2 DIs and 1 CR =)

So, its 2 more semesters to go for me. Next semester will be starting on 18 July.

Yes~ Will be welcoming auditing, accounting theory and singapore taxation modules.

Till then, I wanna enjoy all I can now before school starts~

Take care peeps~! XD

2011-05-10T20:20:00.004+08:00

This GE 2011 opens a new chapter for Singapore. Yes, workers' party winning Aljunied GRC is indeed a Singapore political history and milestone. Low Thia Kiang and his team will be our voice in parliament for the next five years. Thank you workers' party!

This election has further proven that many have stood up for themselves and have sent a strong message to the ruling party. However, there are others who choose to vote for the PAPs and well, they will only have themselves to blame for future hardships.

And lastly, I truly salute and respect Mr Chiam See Tong. A man whose pleasure is the welfare of the people he cares, driven by that he toiled for 27 years, and was hoping to do more, more for his ward, potong pasir. But the ward he so loved, turned him down by mere 114.

I can only imagine his broken heart, his shattered hopes.
I can only imagine the tears he swallowed knowing that they choose the other.
I cannot imagine what the heck those have in thoughts when they put their servant away.

Mr Chiam, although you have lose this election, you have indeed won the hearts and respect of many Singaporeans. You will always be our inspiration!

And for the half of Potong Pasir residents who voted against him, you have indeed made a wrong choice, and I hoped and am confident that you will regret for the next five years!

2011-05-01T17:17:00.002+08:00

Woohoo! NSP public rally tonight at Jurong West stadium! Will be going down to support Steve Chia for Pioneer SMC!

It's time for a change! Enough is enough!
Yessss. Singapore for Singaporeans.

Come 07 May,
Vote for change, vote opposition!

All the best, Steve!~ XD

2011-03-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

Tired. To the extent that I am already on the verge of breaking down. Still struggling on the business plan for our assignment. Haiz. Seriously, studying had never been such a torture to me before. Exams in one month's time and I havent even started studying. All thanks to the assignments. Oh well.

2011-03-13T01:54:00.001+08:00

People cry,
is not because they are weak,
but because they've been strong for too long.

So many assignments to do and due dates are nearing.
Jia you karen.

2011-03-06T15:51:00.002+08:00

Stressed to the max, to the extent that the thought of giving up came to me. I don't know how long more can I last. Totally screwed the tests already. And there are 2 more assignments to be completed. And exams are coming, and I really feel worried for this semester. I really hate the current me now. Tired, really feel very tired already. *sighs*

1.5 more years to go.
Hang in there, karen.

2011-02-24T20:52:00.001+08:00

Oh great. Screwed my corporate accounting test.

2011-02-18T18:28:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, feel so tired of life, tired of everything. =(

2011-02-04T08:58:00.002+08:00

Now is farewell lunch for Wei Guang on his last day on 02 Feb. The speed at which so many people are leaving is simply amazing. *sigh*

2011-01-27T11:18:00.002+08:00

Have you ever been in a situation whereby you felt really lost? When you are unsure about your next step, and you spend time pondering at your decision. You will appear quieter than usual and your mind is constantly reeling with alot of thoughts.

I'm going through this now. I start to doubt myself, whether have I make the right decision. And I can't agree more, uncertainty, is indeed a torture.

2011-01-25T20:48:00.009+08:00

Woots~ Had dinner at Din Tai Fung ^^

酸辣汤

炸酱面

排骨面

油豆腐细粉

红油抄手

小笼包

2011-01-18T12:50:00.004+08:00

Really did enjoy the 2D1N Batam Trip from 15 to 16 Jan 2011 with my dear friends. Have already uploaded the photos on facebook so I shall not post them here. Hee hee XD

Anyways, School has already started but I am still not fully prepared. Its gonna be a heavy loaded semester this time round with all the assignments. I really don't want to fail any more modules. I don't know how long I can last. I am acting a strong front but deep inside, I am struggling.

我真的没有想像中的那么坚强。

不要把一时的成就

误当成一世的荣耀

A war is not won by a battle =)

2011-01-10T22:57:00.004+08:00

So we, the quality services and product release team had a farewell shot in office on Sivani's last day on 05 Jan 11. Yup, it has been great knowing you and thanks for your guidance and patience. All the best in your new career, Sivani!~ XD

2011-01-08T21:36:00.004+08:00

Had our farewell lunch at Bali Thai at IMM on 31 Dec for 3 of my collegues~ Wishing them all the best!~ XD

2011-01-02T11:31:00.002+08:00

Another year had just passed. A brand new year all over again. May 2011 be a pleasant and happy year for everyone. And I hope it will be a good one for me too. Lets whatever happened in 2010 stays in 2010. 2011 is a new year, a new beginning. Things will only get better from now on. I seriously hope so.

You look at them and realize how differently you've grown.

2010-12-21T19:53:00.002+08:00

What lies ahead suddenly turns dark and uncertain. Suddenly, I feel like I am in a jungle without a map. I don't know where to go. I don't know what to do. I feel lost. I am lost.

the pain behind those smiles.

2010-12-11T20:42:00.008+08:00

Woots! Had our dinner gathering at Swenson yesterday. It's so great to meet up with them after so long. Here are some of the photos taken. See fb for more pictures~ XD

2010-12-03T18:36:00.002+08:00

Oh great. I failed my singapore company law. I just knew it. But still, it hurts. My mind is in a whirl. Feel like crying, but no tears came out. I have never failed any modules since poly. Looking back at my terrible 'O' levels results, I really don't want history to repeat itself yet again.

Tiring. But I knew I need to face up to reality.
Lost. And I need my sense of direction in life, again.
Give me hope soon. Let me know what am I supposed to do right now.

And thanks to everyone for consoling me.

I believed, all I need is time.

And I will be alright again.

No worries peeps ^^

2010-11-29T20:28:00.004+08:00

Woooo~ Lots of gatherings and outings in the month of Nov and Dec ^^ More gatherings and meet-ups in the next few weeks! Hahas =D

Anyways, this is taken during pitstop outing with the stompers on 16 Nov. Tada~ XD

2010-11-20T11:50:00.002+08:00

I used to take a lenient stance on being careless. For me, carelessness means that I know my stuffs, and I will definitely do better next time. But is everything as simple as it seems? In school, how many fellow school mates will overtake you in the ranking? Given the stiff competition, that few points dropped might just push you towards the left side of the bell curve. In corporate, careless mistakes made will be pounced on mercilessly.

Now, I have a totally different perspective for carelessness.
If you lack the knowledge, go find out more.
If you are careless, that is your stupidity.

2010-11-03T16:48:00.002+08:00

Woohoo~ Exams are finally over! Honestly, I have never been so stressed and worried for my studies before. I really hope I manage to clear my company law paper. *sigh* No sense of happiness that exams are finally over, only felt so depressed by the papers.

The only enemy in life is yourself.

Sometimes, letting go is the easier way out.

2010-10-25T11:35:00.002+08:00

When we were young, we thought we are the best. As we grow up, we start doubting ourselves, doubting our abilities. We are still the same but our belief no longer hold that strong in us.

There is no second chance. Even though there is, something is different. No time to regret, but to believe and be confident of it. Life might be tough ahead, it is never easy. Because we thought so, so we tell ourselves that. Mundane life meets challenges. No risks no gains.

What more do we want? It is all up to us. The choice that we make. That we choose. That we accept. That we accomadate. That we compromise. The bet that we took. What are the stakes. What are the returns. What will happen. What will it brings us to. What should we do.

Question marks.

2010-10-17T11:50:00.002+08:00

Woohoo. Will be on leave from 25 Oct to 03 Nov. Looking forward to it! Mugging away these few days. Can't wait for exams to be over! Seriously needs a break.

On a side note, people, friends, collegues have been telling me learn to have my own stand, learn to reject, learn to say 'no' at the right time. Am I really too good-hearted for my own good?

2010-10-06T20:22:00.002+08:00

I have always believed that people change, and I have experienced it so many times. But still, everytime it happens, I am so much affected and I couldn't help asking myself, why does one change so fast? I missed the times when we studied, played and had so much fun together. The coldness that is shown to me now is just sad.

So, appreciate and cherish the monents,

Leave only the happy memories.

2010-09-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

Many did not realized that happiness is a choice. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to themselves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again. How wonderful will it be to let go and smile again, isn't it?

Yes. Life is a choice. It is your life. Choose consciously. Choose wisely. Choose honestly. Choose happiness. XD

2010-09-18T20:29:00.002+08:00

Exam timetable is out. Really gonna do some solid studying soon. Finding it hard to focus in lecture nowadays. Making things worst, I find myself grasping to comprehend a module that I got a distinction for back in poly.

But I believe
things will only get better.

2010-09-14T20:50:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, I think I am just plain useless. I just felt inferior. I really don't know what to do. I have to face all these alone.

There's only two choices now,
to pick myself up
or to let myself fall

2010-09-04T19:48:00.002+08:00

Tests are finally over! ^^ Next up, will be the 2 assignments that need to be done. Stressed.

If you can't show that you can,
at least show that you tried.
If you can't see the results shown,
at least see the effort put in. ^^

2010-08-22T11:55:00.003+08:00

All of a sudden, I feel so lost. Yet again, I will have to conquer my cost management module this semester after struggling so hard with management accounting last semester. Things are getting harder and I really have trouble coping with the increasing workload. I just wished I can survive this semester by clearing all modules. ARGH!

On a side note, will be on leave this coming Thursday and Friday to study for the tests. Hope these 2 days will really prepare me for the tests.

2010-08-17T19:34:00.003+08:00

"Try not to become a man of success but rather a man of value"
-- Albert Einstein

Woohoo~ Was so busy nowadays at work and it's true that time flies so fast when you are busy. Anyways met Joanne for dinner at SAFRA on Friday, 13 Aug after work. My company bus reached Boonlay at 505pm and I was so hungry sitting at the bus stop waiting for her loh =X And when we finished our dinner, I was still so hungry loh. HAHA! But I think anyone who knows me shall know that I eat alot and am always hungry lah. Wahahahaha =DD

2010-08-09T16:04:00.003+08:00

I know, avoidance of the fears we had in the inner self, is admitting failure. If you are afraid of what you don't know, you will never grow. It's always the self barrier that's the hardest to overcome. But sometimes, things may not be the way as what we see them as.

On a side note, am shagged to the max.

Tests are coming soon, real soon.

Hope I can survive my 3rd semester~

2010-07-28T19:15:00.003+08:00

"In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to dream. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe"
- Michael Jackson

Nobody is perfect in this world.

Everyone makes mistakes.

But the thing is, people do learn.

And maybe, the world would become a better place for us to live in~

2010-07-13T08:46:00.002+08:00

Super shag. Part time studying + full time working is so tiring. Haiz. And we need to buy textbooks for all modules this semester. Feeling the heartache after paying for the school fees and buying the textbooks. =( This evening got Company Law lecture again. ARGH! I seriously dislike LAW. =/

2010-07-04T08:59:00.006+08:00

Have been meeting and catching up with friends these past few weeks. Really glad to meet them, friends whom I have not seen for ages, yup. xD

Anyways, went to Soup Restaurant for dinner last Sunday at Causeway Point. And the food is really yummy. Hee hee XD Ordered plain rice together with the following dishes:

Samsui Ginger Chicken

Spicy Chaipo Tofu

Ah Kon Fan Shu Leaves

Boiled soup of the day

2010-06-26T12:19:00.004+08:00

School is starting soon. I realized, over time, my attitude towards studies and work has changed, for the better. I am prepared to work hard to achieve the results I want ultimately. Cause, in the exciting world outside, the sad thing is that you'll either fail or succeed...

2010-06-04T20:43:00.002+08:00

Yeah! Cleared semester 2 modules~ Luckily. Really thought I will fail my law module =)
So, next semester will be evening classes for me le. Will try my best to cope with work and studies. GO GO GO~!!! XD

2010-05-07T11:56:00.002+08:00

So, exams are over. But last paper was really terrible. Haiz.
Good luck to all my course mates on the exam results! ^^

2010-04-30T11:19:00.003+08:00

Been mugging for exams these 2-3 weeks. Uni life is so, so hectic =(
So, 2 papers down, 2 more to go.
Price & markets paper was quite alright but stats paper was really a killer. *sigh*
Left law paper on mon and management accounting paper on wed.
And, and next semester will be evening classes already. Time flies~

2010-04-17T11:30:00.002+08:00

ARGH! Why is management accounting so hard? Still trying to figure out flexible budgeting, CVP analysis and NPV. Sad =(
Hmm, anyways am aiming to finish studying stats and price & markets by tomorrow. I seriously need more self-discipline and motivation. But then, having desktop in my room is really such a distraction. Haiz =X
Jiayou hq~ =D

Exam from 26 Apr to 05 May~ ZzzZzz

2010-04-02T11:27:00.003+08:00

I am tired, tired of acting, tired of pretending to be happy. Yes, although I am borned in a not so well-off family, I dare say I am never deprived of anything in life. I may be surrounded by great friends and I may always been doted upon by my loved ones... But deep down, I just feel so lonely and all that turns into nothing. I realized, loneliness is indeed so so scary, for we mankind fears loneliness always, don't we?

2010-03-25T11:38:00.002+08:00

Coming into the 5th year of our friendship, we met on 21st March at vivo city to celebrate our 5 years of friendship. And we had lots of fun, reminiscing back to the 点点滴滴 in 2005. Now, come to think of it, some of the things that had happened were indeed humorous and we couldn't stopped laughing all over again. Yes, and we took lotsa photos too - See facebook =) And finally, I hope we can meet much more often but again, we are all busy with our own life. -sigh-

On a side note, price and markets test 2 on 31 March.

Lots of funny graphs to understand.

ARGH!

2010-03-12T11:09:00.004+08:00

I have been reminiscing alot about the past these few days. Fond memories came flooding back. Time flies. It's been five years, five years of friendship. Yes, it was in this month of March five years ago that had left wonderful memories in my heart. Whenever I thought back about the past, I just missed it even more. I missed those days, missed the fun and laughter, missed the humorous things that have happened and then laugh it off together. Those days were indeed my happiest moment in my life. Sometimes, how I wished to go back to the past. Unfortunately, those days will never come back, and we have already entered into the next phrase of our life. But well, hope our friendship will never ever dies =)

2010-03-05T11:29:00.004+08:00

很多人都说，时间是最好的疗伤武器。但我在想，如果离你而去的是你最要好的朋友或是你最亲爱的人，难道随着时间的流失，你的伤痛真的会减轻吗？对的，我偶尔还是会想着她，我偶尔还是会想念她。。。R.I.P Mandy =)

2010-02-26T11:49:00.002+08:00

Nothing on Earth can stay constant forever. Because we have met failures, heartaches, disappointments and departures. We found greed in the midst of happiness, and that contentment is never within reach cos it's a fact that everyone yearns for more, for the better, isn't it? And by having failed to grab hold of something until it's lost from your embrace, there's always regrets.

改变,都需要勇气面对~

2010-02-16T12:07:00.008+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year people! XD
Here's some photos taken during CNY. More photos can be found on facebook =)
Okies tests are coming up soon with the first paper starting on 24 Feb. Haiz, management accounting is driving me mad T_T

2010-02-07T11:28:00.003+08:00

A friend of mine just died on 03 Feb 2010. It was too nasty a news to get at the new year. When I received the news from my friend, I gasped, dunbfounded by shock as I read through the sms again and again, trying my best to digest it. I was deeply shakened by it, she IS someone I know, she IS my friend. She is of my age! She is simply too young and tender to die!
This is not a joke, it's reality! This is when this piece of news sank in. At that point in time, I really do not know how to accept that fact that she commited suicide! I could not believe that the people I know will actually commit suicide! And I really do regret for not detecting anything wrong with her when we last seen each other in december.
Please people, suicide is never a choice in life! Carry on living, treasure your life. Don't ever let your loved ones grief for you due to your rash decisions. All problems can be solved somehow!

Rest in peace, Mandy. You will be dearly missed and remembered by us. We will never ever forget your laughter and cheerfulness. =)

2010-02-02T12:03:00.005+08:00

OMG time flies T_T 1st month of the semester passed by in a blink!!
Been very busy with school lately. Am still trying my best to cope with the heavy workload. Well, finally done revising my stats and management accounting modules. At least now, I have a greater understanding on the topics that were being taught last week =D Haiz, uni is indeed so different from poly. Yay 8 modules in 1 semester during poly was quite manageable for me. But now, 4 modules are already draining me out =(
Should really start to work hard from today ^^ - as I always believe I reap what I sow XD

-tired and exhausted-

2010-01-23T11:32:00.002+08:00

Okay =) So she taught us that 30+10 is equal to 40, that 2p=100, therefore p=100/2, so p=50, how to plot points in order to draw a straight-line graph and how to substitute numbers into a linear equation step by step. And, and she said the lecture was an intensive one and it's ok if we don't get it now. Oh yeah =/

Without challenges, one will never try,

Without setbacks, one will never triumph,

Without losses, one will never appreciate.

2010-01-19T17:24:00.002+08:00

Do not be a coward, fearful or weak, be the last one to quit and the first one to speak.
Do not hide your face from the light of day, be courageous in life and stay that way.
No need to run from trials and troubles, have CONFIDENCE.
Well, I am still working towards achieving the above =)
Low self-esteem, inferiority complex... I am still trying to overcome =D
I know I can do it!! xD

zzzzz always hungry,

3 bowls of rice is not enough for me,

and hungry again 15 mins after I have taken my lunch/dinner =/

Yeah I love food!!! XD

And yay the curry chicken baked rice at Swensen is awesome,

you guys should go try it yea XD

2010-01-09T19:12:00.007+08:00

So, this is our group photo before we say goodbye to each other~
And we had our mini party 03 Jan 2010 ^^

2010-01-06T18:21:00.002+08:00

Thanks for the many, many birthday wishes received, be it via facebook, sms, msn or email. All is well appreciated ^^
Well, 5 more days till school starts. Looking forward to it.
Hope I can perform better this semester xD
Take care peeps~

2010-01-01T12:02:00.002+08:00

A brand new year, a brand new start.
Hope 2010 would be a better year for me, as well as for my family. Life would be better, I believed. Take care my friends, may the new year brings you much joy and laughter. Happy 2010!!! =)

2009-12-16T12:21:00.012+08:00

Wells, had a wonderful saturday at Malaysia with my family. Since pictures speak a thousand words, I shall let the pictures do the talking for our Desaru/Johore trip on 12 Dec. More photos are available in facebook too~ =)

2009-12-08T12:47:00.004+08:00

Looking back, it definitely hurts when your loved ones don't believe or trust you totally but I really find that the reality of life is too cruel at times. It seems like nothing is absolute, nothing is forever and the only thing that would never change is change itself. It's sad to feel that in this world, I can only trust myself 100%. Even then, sometimes I also don't trust myself to make the best decisions for myself.

At times, I really feel that life is so unfair. Never have this feeling of emptiness before, but nobody shall ever knows that the more I laugh, the more my inner heart is aching. Cos I only want people to see the happy me.

Yes, it's true that I will always put in my best in whatever I do but lately it has come across me that demanding for perfection indeed hurts. Living in a world where perfection is expected, but yet the world itself is largely imperfect is such an irony. =)

No matter what, I will look at the bright side of life and move on. Things that doesn't kill only makes me stronger~ =DD

2009-11-30T11:52:00.007+08:00

Lots of things on my mind. The mind is indeed a hard weapon to control. Memories came flooding back like nobody's business. I finally realized the rational that when deep injury is done to us, we will never recover until we forgive. I admit that I was too naive, thinking that she will change, but I can't believe I was so wrong about it. I have tried my best, but the moment I saw her, I knew immediately that I can't forgive and definitely can't forget the things she said or did to us. Yes, she will always be the biggest bane in my life.

Anyways, went for my grandma's 91st brithday yesterday~ =DD Here's the photos ^^

2009-11-18T19:24:00.002+08:00

Lots of things have happened recently and seeing her in such pain and torture, I no longer hate her, instead my heart is full of pity for her. It has came to a point where haggling over who's right and who's wrong has no more significance anymore. Though i had hated her before, this is not the outcome i had wished or wanted. I am in fact mentally and physically exhausted already. It's time to forgive and forget, what's past is already in the past. There is no reason to dwell upon it. We live in this world not for the past but for the present and future. =)

Overcoming obstacles is what makes a person grows up.

2009-11-13T12:08:00.003+08:00

Sometimes reality hurts. Thats why I don't dare to ask, I started to pretend not to know anything, I started to live in my own tiny world. Sometimes, I don't understand what people are thinking. Really, what do I really get in return by being kind and helpful to others? NOTHING!! People just treat you as a fool!! So, I started to see how cruel and sad the reality is, but for all I know, life is like that - simple yet complicated.

Sometimes, forgetting the past need not be a bad thing =)

2009-11-06T11:41:00.002+08:00

Hellos ^^ Really can't believed its the holidays now. This semester really passed by way too fast. And now, I just need to hope that my results are up to expectations =(

Sometimes, I just wished that I am a child again. Naive, innocent and get into all kinds of trouble and still getting away from it. But now, with more responsibilities, and the need to live up to everyone's expectations of me and the scary feeling of failing them... Really, who or what am I living for? I'm dying to find out~ =(

=so drained of energy=

2009-11-02T08:42:00.006+08:00

Heya, just a quick update before I am off to study for my exam AGAIN. Last paper on 04 Nov. Yeah~!!!

So.... We were camwhoring during class at Frontier CC. Not the full class though. LOL ^^

Will update about our lunch at Sakura after my exams =)

2009-10-10T14:31:00.004+08:00

Chiong-ing for marketing assignment these few days and 1st paper is only 19 days away...

=dead meat=

Hope that I can endure till 4 November, I need to no matter what!! hq jiayou jiayou JIAYOU~!!!

2009-09-23T19:10:00.006+08:00

Yays, some photos of Kahmun's 21st birthday party on 11 Sep 2009. ^_^

2009-09-18T17:34:00.008+08:00

Yeah finally the tests are over~!! Next up will be assignment, econs test 2 on 06 Oct and final exam from Oct 29 - Nov 04. Argh!!! It's really so scary loh =.= But nevertheless, school life is definitely a bliss~~ Wahahahahaha ^^

Anyways, here are some outdated photos of the Army Open House 2009. XD

2009-09-03T12:39:00.002+08:00

Woots! I seriously have no time to update my blog. And I wonder who actually visits my blog nowadays. Many are just using the tagboard as a wonderful chit-chat session. Haha pls continue to spam my tagboard~! Been busy studying for my tests which are coming up soon. What I need right now is more motivation and less distractions. I really need to do well!!!

Anyways, been looking forward to accounting and economics lecture every week. In contrast, marketing lecture was a torture to me every week where the lecturer seems to sing lullaby to us in the class =x

Okaes I promise I will update more after my tests. Ciaos~!

2009-08-11T18:15:00.004+08:00

Woohoo~~~ Happy belated birthday to SINGAPORE XD Thanks to the hard work done by our leaders, Singapore had enjoyed 44 years of independence since 1965. *thumbs up*

Anyways, just back from marketing assignment discussion. Okays, first week of my school is over liao and I am already feeling very stressed le =.= The school work is really very hectic lol. But nevertheless, school is quite alright and fun. And met quite afew of my sec sch and my poly friends in school too. Oh ya, there is so many notes, haven printed finish yet lol =.= Hmm, off to do my tuts liao. Take care =))

People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness.

Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost.

-- Dalai Lama

2009-07-05T16:21:00.005+08:00

Hehe ^^ Went for hi-tea buffet at Zhou's Kitchen yeaterday. The food is quite nice and we ate till very full =.= The price is also quite reasonable - $17++ (inclusive of gst and service charge) per pax. Hmm wanna try dragongate restauarant's dim sum buffet next time as I heard alot of positive feedback =D Anyways, here are some of the food that we ate yesterday xD

2009-07-04T09:06:00.003+08:00

Weets xD I guess I have joined STOMP online forum for close to 8 months already starting from November last year. Well, it is here that I saw how narrow-minded can people be - people who began with their personal attacking the moment others disagree with them. It also came to me as a shock here that there is so much hatred between both genders which I have never came accross in real life, people who will go about calling every female a whore or a slut without a second thought. However, it is also here that I have met some nice stompers and eventually become good friends.

Why do people always say sg females are materialistic? Do they mean to say that foreign brides are not materialistic? Well, if they are not materialistic, which is the force that drives them to marry a sg male who is 30,40 years her senior? Yes, it is because foreign brides also want to have a better life which they lack in their home country.

Furthermore, since the standard of living in sg is high, it is natural for sg females to have a higher expectation. And also in today's society, most are working females and they can provide for their own desires and they do not need to live off men in order to satisy their desires. So please stop saying sg females are materialistic as they are not using her man's money. =D

*yeah 1 more month to school*

2009-06-24T12:46:00.015+08:00

Sorry peeps! I know this post is abit outdated but I was being too engrossed in other things and also. lazy to upload the pictures =.= Anyways, hereby presenting to you my zoo outing on 13 Jun 2009. =D

2009-06-20T20:21:00.002+08:00

Yay =) Currently, my newest addiction is puzzlespot, can you spot it and spot the difference on facebook. In the meantime, I am also on the search for more table tennis kakis XD

Anyways, as promised, here are some of the happenings in the past 2 weeks =D
Okaes, went to Singapore Discovery Centre with my mum, sister and Kelvin on 30 May and we watched the movie on Monsters and Aliens AND Doplohins and the whales.
And I went to Escape Theme Park with Kelvin on 31 May. And due to quite a few were undergoing maintenance, we were given 2 free tickets. Yeah ^^
Met a fellow stomper at bugis on 15 Jun. And we had subway for dinner, went shopping, take neoprints and camwhore. Quite a nice stomper to chat with =)
Hmm, attended my cousin's wedding dinner on 18 Jun and quite coincidentally, saw 2 of my poly classmates there as they happened to be my cousin's collegues, Such a small world, huh? XD

More to come... Cya all =D

2009-06-18T08:54:00.003+08:00

Just yesterday, I felt anger boiling inside me. Why does he always think so little of me? Stop thinking that everyone is as stupid and ignorant as you! Since young, you have been insulting my intelligence and hurting my ego over again and again. I have had enough, okay?? I hate to say this but it's a fact. With him around, happiness seems so far away. With him around, I have lost my freedom. With him around, I became so vexed. In fact, I even came accross this thought that as long as he is out of my life, I will definitely be much happier. Well, I can forgive but I will never forget what he did or said that have left me in despair. =)

Anyways, I have always wonder what is life really about? Why am I being brought here, in this cruel world? Izzit to make money? Or to contribute something useful back to society? Or to make the people who truly care about me happy? Yeah, life is about giving love to others, while at the same time embracing the love that others give you. Without love, life is meaningless. Love keeps the heart beating, the emotions raving, and motivating me to face the challenges of tomorrow. Yes, this is the answer - life is about loving each other. I live because there are people who truly love me and cherish me. If there comes a day when no one loves me anymore, then indeed my existence is pointless. But yes, I also must say, that life, or rather the creater of life is unfair. That's a fact to live with too. Agree?

Okays, will update about the happenings in the past 2 weeks soon. Stay tuned xD

2009-05-29T12:15:00.004+08:00

Weets peeps, I'm back ^^

I just can't understand why do people always have this mentality that staying at home means that they are very free. Have they ever asked themselves who is the one who wash their clothes, who is the one who cook for them, who is the one who keep the house clean and tidy, etc? But all these efforts that is put in by a housewife always gone unnoticed and had never been appreciated at all. And and and, of course if given the opportunity, I think everyone would want to work, at least there is income, instead of being at home and being accused of being too free, etc. I really feel unworthy for my mum. =(

As the saying goes - Behind every successful man, there is a greater woman.

I'm having extreme moods swings lately. Yeap I'm not working now, but that doesn't mean i'm not progressing in life. I'm helping my mum with household chores, I am studying statistics to prepare myself for school, and lots more and i am very sure i am not 100% idle. I am doing stuff, just at my own pace, but the setback is no income, no savings, no helping my family to reduce burden. Give me 3 years, upon graduation, and I will continue the path that everyone takes. xD

2009-05-09T08:02:00.002+08:00

Weets~~~ I have just recreated my facebook account after closing down my old account for 1 year. Well, it will be a new beginning, a new start. =D

Add me at huiqian_88@yahoo.com.sg. Cya there xDDDDDDD

2009-05-04T17:06:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you ask yourself if you will see yourself doing something that you love 10 years down the road.
Sometimes you ask yourself if you even have a stand in the whole picture.
Sometimes you wonder, if putting in effort is all worth it if you know that it is impossible to achieve.

There are somethings in life that once you hit a certain time of your life, it's really hard for you to go back to square 1 and try, where as people are already way in front of you.

It's like chasing after a train that you've missed and the rest of the passengers are already on board the train. How can you win the race? How can you even catch up with the train? By running damn fast, do you think it's really possible?

Yes it is, some might say, maybe because you're the passengers on the train, thats why you feel that it's possible. Try to be the one running after the train.

It's possible, but how long can your stamina last? How long can you endure? Do you really think one can run faster then a train?

It's unfair for runners to start at different point of the track, but both of your ending point is the same. But yea, like what people always say, life is never fair.

So should i even waste my time trying and fighting when i know that something is impossible?

It's not that i never try, but it's sometimes just too late.

Sometimes it's even easier to get the train to chase after people, it's way way way faster! right?

I want to remember this something that i love as a beautiful thing, as a happy thing, as an enjoyable issue. Not the waste of energy, efforts, and pain that is being compared to running together with a train.

It's disheartening, and it's demoralizing.

Well, it's always better to stay in something that you are good at than at something you are way below, isn't it? Maybe one day i will find something that I am confident in and that I will definitely excel in. I have to and I will.

Sometimes one should just learn to move on. :)

2009-04-10T15:40:00.002+08:00

Food poisoning at Geylang Serai market left 2 women dead. Sad :-(

Quoted from The Straits Times on Apr 9:

Second woman dies

THE worst food-poisoning outbreak here claimed its second victim on Wednesday.
Madam Noraini Kasim, 58, died in Alexandra Hospital without coming out of the coma into which she lapsed during the weekend.

Her retired husband of two years, Mr Mohd Salleh Sarip, 65, is in shock over how quickly her condition worsened: On Friday, hours after a mid-afternoon meal of Indian rojak from the stall named Rojak Geylang Serai in the Geylang Serai market, she came down with diarrhoea.

It was so bad that she was trailing blood as she made her way to the toilet.

She was admitted to hospital only the next day, when her condition did not improve and a doctor told her husband to get her to a hospital.

Her heart stopped at least thrice during the weekend before she entered a coma.
Mr Mohd Salleh said he had not been alarmed by his wife's bleeding, thinking it to be 'simply diarrhoea'.

In the hospital, he was told that treatment for his wife - who had diabetes and hypertension - was complicated because her heart rate and blood pressure were low.
Madam Noraini was with a friend for that meal of Indian rojak. Her friend, who ate only a little of it, was fine.

But neither Madam Noraini nor the first victim, Madam Aminah Samijo, 57, who died on Monday, were as lucky. Another 144 people were treated as outpatients or had to be hospitalised.

Among them was Madam Rosiah Samat, 38, who had diarrhoea on Friday evening, followed by a miscarriage. She was discharged but re-admitted on Tuesday for residual stomach pains. She is expected to be discharged on Thursday.

2009-03-30T12:01:00.003+08:00

Today's Inspiration - How to stay young?
1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight, and height.
Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning:
Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever.
Never let the brain get idle.
"An idle mind is the devil's workshop."
And the devil's name is Alzheimer's!

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and lots of time with him or her!

6. The tears happen:
Endure, grieve, and move on.
The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourself.
LIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love:
Whether it's family, pets, music, plants, hobbies, whatever.
Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health:
If it is good, preserve it.
If it is unstable, improve it.
If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

2009-03-15T09:08:00.002+08:00

Been stomping quite alot during weekdays and I realized STOMP is getting boring these days, there is not much interesting threads. And I tried my best never to go to the campus chit-chat session as there are some stompers who created never ending debate threads such as "Can poly students keep up with JC students in the universities", "Do you think ITE students are stupid", etc. And what's more, I even saw replies like "To most people, RP is only an ITE alternative", "If you are lazy but not stupid, you will also end up in poly at least", etc =.= Can these people be abit more sensitive to others? *sigh*

Anyways, went out with my sister yesterday and our final stop was the IT show. We walked from Chinatown to bugis and finally to suntec city. By the time we reached suntec city, our legs are killing us =x LOL! Got squeezed like sardine at the IT show and my sister bought a Nikon camera there. And I ate laksa for dinner. *Yummy*

Okies, by popular demand, gonna organize another gathering in April. Guys, any suggesstions on the venue for our gathering? And finally, hope everyone can attend this time round.

Cya~~~ xDDDD

2009-03-04T11:33:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps, I am finally here to blog. Missed me? Lols =D

Don't know why, but somehow just feel so busy lately. Anyways, had our poly gathering last sunday at bugis at the korean restaurant. There were so much catching ups with each other and everyone was talking at the same time. Hahas. It's really nice seeing all those faces again. =) Guys, lets meet out again soon yeah? xD

Okies, had changed my mobile no some time back. I am sorry but is there anyone that I had missed out on informing about my new hp no? Please inform me, thanks.

Sorry if I have not replied some of your sms as I am using prepaid card right now. But my msn is always open for spams =X Please spam ahead xD LOL

2009-02-07T12:44:00.003+08:00

Hello everybody~~~ Sorry for neglecting my blog but it seems like everyone is also not updating theirs.

I have live in this world for 21 years now and I began to think more and more about my life. I began to treasure all the people who love and cherish me even more for I don't want to have any regrets in my life. At least for now, I am a happy person with a circle of friends and my family who will always be there for me, and I am afraid of losing them. Thank you peeps for sharing both my sorrows and happiness.

Anywaes, had been coughing for almost 2 weeks and had yet to recover. *sigh* And i am really so blur, I had actually missed the last day of application for the specialist diploma. =( Haiz, how blur could I be? Now only hoping someone withdraws from the course, else I will need to wait for the October intake. *sob sob*

Cheers =)

2009-01-28T09:32:00.015+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year to everyone =D
Had our reunion dinner on new year's eve and do some visiting on Monday. Anywaes, went to the Sentosa Flowers 2009 yesterday with my sister and mother. So here are some of the photos taken. =)

Nothing in this world is impossible,

Cause the word impossible itself says,

I AM POSSIBLE ^^

2009-01-16T12:55:00.002+08:00

Went back to SP today. Walked around SP with Raymond. Yeah, it really brought back alot of wonderful memories. Lots of things had changed, there were constructions everywhere. And finally, I got to eat SP food again after almost 1 year. Woohoo ^^

SP ROCKS~!!! =D

2009-01-11T20:52:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!

It's only just 2 weeks away from CNY but I am not looking forward to it at all. Its only mean another day whereby relatives start asking me the same questions over and over again or those that constantly treat me as invisible. I hate it but what can I do? *sigh*

Is there anyone who seriously still love CNY nowadays?

Take care peeps~

p/s: peishi - take care and hope your fever will recover soon. Meet out soon ok. =)

2009-01-05T09:15:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps ^^

Thanks for all the birthday wishes and birthday celebrations. Though it had been so long since we last met out, I'm really touched that you guys still remembered my birthday. Oh ya, and a special thanks to my family for the present and the cake.

Love you guys and I will always remember my 21st birthday.

We are what we think.
All that we are arises
with our thoughts.
With our thoughts,
we make our world.

2009-01-02T19:14:00.003+08:00

Looking back, 2008 marks another pinnacle of my life, with several ups and downs of life encounters. And all these had changed me into another person, perhaps a better one or the other way round. I don't know, it depends on how others see me.

For now, it's not easy at all. It's frustrating to really know what I want to achieve in life. There is no point looking back at what you have left behind, it will only bring in more regrets. It's good to be contented with what I have now, as a greedy person will never be satisfied and in the end live more miserably.

And my last word here, thank you people for celebrating my early 21st birthday.

p/s Never let the word "give up" be in your dictionary

2008-12-27T10:33:00.015+08:00

I know it's abit late, but still wanna wish everyone a very Merry Xmas and Happy New Year!!!
Anyways, went to Singapore Zoo on Christmas day and here's are some photos taken~

2008-12-14T13:56:00.009+08:00

First of all, great thanks to all those who continue to tag and sms me despite my disappearance in this blog. It really brightens up my day and make me feel that I have not been forgotten =)
Anyways, sorry for not updating my blog. Many things happened in the past few weeks, but somehow I had no idea how to put it down in words. Okies, some of the more interesting things that took place include going up the Singapore flyer, dinner with clients at M Hotel for the steamboat buffet, sentosa outing with my mum and sister and lots and lots of SHOPPING. Oh ya, the enlarged Jurong Point has already open and there are lotsa of news shops, yippie~

Pics taken during Singapore flyer:

Pics taken during sentosa outing:

Maturity begins to

grow when you can

sense your concern

for others outweighing

your concern for yourself.

2008-11-17T12:45:00.005+08:00

Tagged by Alvin :-D
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(1) What is your ambition? -- Maybe a successful ship broker, but this job requires someone who is much more aggressive, arghhh

(2) Who is more important to you? Friend or boyfriend? -- Friend

(3) How often do you think of committing suicide? -- Never, life is precious

(4) Do you think you have enough confidence? -- Definately no, need to work on it from now

(5) How many babies you want? -- Maybe 2 ba, just nice

(6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? -- Yeap

(7) What is your goal for this year? -- Lets go of all my unhappiness and be happy

(8) Do you believe in eternity love? -- Nope

(9) What criterias must a perfect boyfriend have to you? --
Good financial status, able to give me security, believe in me, respect me, be understanding towards me and my committments, be able to think maturely and be a good listener

(10) What feeling do you love most? -- Being loved

(11) Do you cherish every single friendship you had? -- Definately

(12) What does flying means to you? -- Freedom

(13) What do you crave for the most right now? -- food of cos, it's lunch soon

(14) What will you become in 10 years from now? -- Someone who can manage life well

(15) What do you always do before you sleep? -- Wash my face and brush my teeth

(16) What have you done to make you happy? -- Achieve what I want, gain trust from others, make others happy

Yeah~~ Finally completed the test :-D Off for lunch now. Stomach groaning le =x

2008-10-31T11:12:00.006+08:00

Happy Halloween~~

Yeah, it's the last day of the month already. Anyone can guess where am I blogging from right now? YES, I am blogging from home. Surprised? Okies, so the story goes like this... Was informed that my colleague was infected by the hand, foot and mouth disease yesterday morning. Therefore, for safety sake, McQuilling office was closed today for some cleaning and disinfection. So here I am, working from home. Hehes.

Anyways, as I matured over the years, I've came to truly see more and more ugly side of the world. I've see how people try all means, even if it means betraying their "so called" friends for the sake of reaching their ultimate goals. I've indeed learnt that only money and position can buy you respect. As the old saying goes "no money, no talk". In reality, sad to say, the logic just works this way. Really an ugly world I am in now. Indeed reality is putting worthless priorities in human life, and pushing us to show no love to one another.

Just think, how often do you tell yourself to love others? Love, love, love... The word "love" is floating everywhere and often hears it coming out from people's mouth so freely. Does it still carry anymore meaning nowadays in the world? Well, if it's the case, it's indeed sad but that's life.

I missed my polytechnic days, those innocent days where everyone works together as one united class. Take care peeps~